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Biblical Hebrews, Thoughts of Seraphim Sophia

A New Beginning for the Children of Israel: We shall receive God’s Blessings and not his Judgments! We must endure to the End!

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Shalom brothers and sisters of Christ. I sit on my patio writing to you from sunny Florida. Today I am scrolling through some posts and adding some of my Facebook posts to my website because I was called to do some work on social media. I’ve been sharing my dreams and visions for the last 9 years and now I am returning back to focus on my website. While I was reading through some of the posts I came upon this.

It’s dated August 15, 2015. I said that a new day was coming. It is a new beginning for me and the children of Israel. The gates in heaven are opening up and Yah is pouring down blessings for his children. Be prepared to receive your blessings Israel. Yah is restoring his people, and he will reward those who have been obedient. We will receive a double portion just like Elisha. The Kingdom of Love is here.

So, this caught my attention because 2015 was the year I started the ministry page. In 2015, I experienced many dreams and visions, or perhaps I should say I received numerous revelations. It’s been really tough for the last 9 years of my life and honestly, I’ve been waiting patiently for this new beginning. Recently I posted about how I wanted to receive the rewards of God and not his judgments. Perhaps the time is approaching when the true children of God will receive God’s blessings. All those who have returned back to him and who have kept his commandments which sums to LOVE shall receive his blessings and rewards. I keep saying this in my journal, “I want the goodness of God to return to me.” Eventually this will happen, and I will receive the goodness of God. I hope all the goodness I’ve shared with the universe finds its way back to me.

We tend to look at the bad experiences from karma but what about the positive experiences that come from the good karma we’ve created? That’s what I’m concentrating on now that I’ve woken up. I want to accumulate positive karma for myself, and I’ve been learning a lot of things recently and it’s definitely shifted my mindset about a lot of things. I’m always learning, growing and evolving with time. There are just so many levels of my awakening, but I want to discuss a few things because many years ago, there was a massive awakening within the collective consciousness of the children of Israel. My awakening began in 2012, and I noticed that the massive awakening amongst Israel happened shortly after I was called to the throne of God. Perhaps it started before this, and I didn’t recognize it because I was still asleep. So, let’s just say it was my appointed time to awaken, and I noticed the awakening of others afterwards.

When I witnessed the awakening, it was incredible to see what God has been doing and how He has been working with His people. God has worked with me personally, keeping me safe and sheltered under His wings. The gathering of Israel in America shows that God has a plan. While we may not fully understand it, the awakening of the children of Israel in these last days is happening for a reason and surely, it’s to fulfil biblical prophecy. I recall the moments when my melanated brothers and sisters started learning that they were the true Israelites of the bible. We were trying to come together as a people to unite but there were issues as usual because people were trying to control others and tell people what they need to be doing. I felt it was unwise for people who were just awakening to the truth to place themselves in certain positions. They started forming camps and people were not teaching the bible accurately. It was a lot of hatred and anger, coming from my people. Once we began to realize that we had all been lied to, the truth hit us hard and hurt deeply.

My people struggled to process their feelings and emotions, and it quickly escalated into vengeance and revenge. The target then became the White Man, and he became the devil, one of our enemies. Well, it’s true the White Man did some evil and wicked things to black people and to all indigenous tribes in the land but there’s a greater evil than the white man. There are negative Extraterrestrial beings who are reptilians from Draco Constellation, and the Dragon has been after the children of Israel but that’s another post. But we can’t say that all white people are our enemies. Some white people have truly supported us, showing love and kindness without any prejudice based on our skin color. Those who mistreated us and our ancestors didn’t love themselves. In general, all people who hurt others clearly don’t love themselves and honestly it has nothing to do with skin color it’s more of what lies in a person’s heart. Nothing good or holy comes from a heart that is evil or wicked period.

When I uncovered the truth on my own—that we had all been deceived and our identity had been hidden and stolen—it deeply hurt me. I wondered why anyone would want to cover up our true identity. Why would they hide the true images of our people, Yahshua, and his disciples? They whitewashed history, making it seem like we didn’t exist or matter. They deceived us and tried to erase the true identity of our people. It’s truly wicked. In the end, I don’t see the need for revenge because I believe the universal law of Karma will ensure everyone gets what they deserve for their actions. It’s really as simple as that—no one gets away with anything. Instead, I choose to heal and forgive those who have hurt me and my ancestors. I want to focus on working through my own pain and anger, learning how to release and transform my own negative energies. This is what you call self-growth.

When the children of Israel began awakening, they lacked true knowledge or understanding. From what I observed, some were unaware of spiritual matters and began judging and condemning others in the Israelite community, even though they themselves did not follow the commandments. It sounds like the past huh. Well, we are the Israelites from the bible. Sometimes I like to say the same wicked spirits that operated in the past are the same wicked souls living in the world today. Perhaps these people may have been reincarnated. It’s like a replay of events. Who knows? If wickedness still exists within a certain number of Israelites, these might be the same wicked souls who created issues and problems within the Israelite community in a past time. Only God knows right. It’s something to think about.

Many of us teach love and follow Yahshua’s teaching while others don’t really teach love and forgiveness. Again, we must use discernment and know the tree by its fruit. Everyone who claim they are awake may not be awake in Christ. Some people who have been awakening could be fallen angels in disguise and some of them could be working for the enemy to create more division and this includes all races. There’s a lot of false teachings and false prophets out there. Alot of people talk about Christ Consciousness yet they deny that Yahshua was a real person. Some people believe it’s all symbolic, almost as if they suggest that Yahshua wasn’t an actual historical figure. It’s really sad, and that’s how false teachings spread. Most of the time, it’s white people I’ve heard saying these things in the so-called spiritual community. They even talk about ascension symptoms and it’s really us being bombarded with incoming radiation that is causing discomfort in their bodies. But it’s more to it than that. But they try to cover up things and use different terminology. Just say what it is. I digress.

But back to what I was saying about the wicked ones within my own race. Many of the Hebrews have the same old mentality that’s how you know who is wicked and who is pure. In the beginning I didn’t see any love amongst my brothers and sisters, and I believe it’s because they didn’t love themselves. How can they show love to one another when they haven’t truly experienced real love in their own lives. Life has been rough for many of the Israelites; it’s one struggle after the next. Sometimes they don’t even experience love from their own family, and then they get betrayed by their own friends. Then we have to worry about other races hating on us. It really hasn’t been an enjoyable experience for many black families and that’s just the truth. There’s no justification for the behavior of Black individuals, but it’s important to consider the underlying issues within the Black community. I don’t want to get into all of that, but when I observed the Israelites, I noticed a lot of hatred, and it was a chaotic mess. I understand how we ended up in the karmic situation we were stuck in. But God gave us another opportunity to return back to him.

God revealed to me how unaware and lost we, the Hebrew Israelites, had been. He showed me our need for spiritual guidance and growth. I heard the call from God, and I hearkened to my heavenly father’s voice. I wished for God to personally guide me into the truth, along with the Holy Spirit. Another person who is in darkness can’t lead me into the light; we will both end up falling. The brothers I saw teaching the word were misleading others, so I decided to step back and observe. I love my brothers and sisters, but I ultimately decided to separate myself from them. I decided to seek the Most High myself and not join any Hebrew Israelite camps. Once I was attacked verbally by Hebrew Israelite men, I took it as a sign to keep my distance. Women were being controlled, unable to speak or teach, and it was heartbreaking to see. These men lacked proper upbringing and showed no respect for women. During the massive awakening it was an awesome time for many of us but at the same time it was a moment of darkness and sadness. Many of us were functioning in a low vibrational state of consciousness. I could see the hellish condition of our souls’ beings raised before the throne of God.

During the week of my spiritual awakening I was raised up before the throne in heaven so surely the same thing was happening with my people. I believe this was the moment that the 144,000 were sealed. I was sealed in 2012 during the week of my awakening. During that week, it felt as though I had died and been reborn into a new life in Christ. My old self had passed away, and a new version of me emerged. I was merging with my higher self. My consciousness programming underwent a kind of rewiring, and it felt like my mind was being restored, as if I were resurrected on the sabbath day. On the seventh day, my mind was restored, and I gained clarity in vision. The great awakening among the children of Israel felt like God bringing the dead back to life, reviving those who were spiritually lost and held in bondage for a long time. I think it was dark magic done against the children of Israel. There were dark forces and evil spirits influencing individuals around me to do witchcraft against me and unfortunately it unlocked me from my sleeping chamber.

I suppose someone had to trigger the massive awakening for the 144,000. My higher self knew something greater, but my lower self couldn’t comprehend all that was happening. I was summoned to the throne, and I heard the call in the spirit. From my personal experience, the curse was officially lifted for me in 2012, and my consciousness was resurrected, and I was revived after 7 days. My awakening experience happened during July 2, 2012- July 8th, 2012, a total of 7 days. My consciousness was finally restored on July 8th, 2012, and it felt like I had stepped into a New World, the environment on Earth felt different. It felt like I was in a new land on the Earth. It was like a New Vibration. It felt like Paradise was finally restored on Earth. I could feel God’s love all around me. I was literally surrounded by the Kingdom of Heaven, and I could hear the angels clearly. It was like I was Eve returning back to Paradise. During the first week of July I heard in the spirit, “It is finished!” Whatever God had done to me the work was completed.

But I had realized that I was in a deep sleep, and I was spiritually dead. I had no awareness at all before my awakening, and I was literally walking on Earth spiritually dead. It’s hard to say this but it’s true. I had no idea of a higher reality. So, when the massive awakening occurred with the children of Israel it’s like we were all awakening from the spell or curse that was placed upon us. Were we all sleeping under a spell that was cast through the astral realm? Is it possible that God had to reverse the curse that was cast through the 4th dimension to awaken and restore our consciousness? I mention this because when I was freed from spiritual bondage during the day and the night during my attack, I woke up in the astral realm, and a war was taking place. Someone was trying to keep me from awakening in the 4th dimension. Why is that? The 4th dimension is where the sorcerers and dark magicians use their dark magic against people, and it’s evident that the dark brotherhood cast spells.

I believe there are guardians stationed in the astral realms, and they know everything that is happening. It’s possible that we have been fighting in a war in the 4th dimension for a very long time. I believe there are dark forces on the Earth who want to have control over people’s souls, and they want to dominate the 4th dimension. Perhaps this has something to do with a portal or stargate. When I think about the 4th dimension I think about the heart chakra because it’s the midway station of the upper and lower chakras. When I reflect on everything that the ancient Ones has built on Earth, I think about places that symbolize or connect to the Earth’s core essence, like the Great Pyramid of Giza, which is linked to the fourth-dimensional stargate or portal. It brings a scripture to mind about the monument in the heart of land of Egypt. Isaiah 19: 19-20 states, “In that day there will be an altar to the Lord in the heart of Egypt, and there will be a monument to the Lord at its border.  It will be a sign and a witness that the Lord of Heaven’s Armies is worshiped in the land of Egypt. When the people cry to the Lord for help against those who oppress them, he will send them a savior who will rescue them. We know who the architect of the Great Pyramid of Giza is and it’s Enki’s son, Ningishzidda who is known as Thoth. And we know a lot about the Atlantean, and he was great in knowledge and in wisdom. His father taught him a lot of things. But the savior was sent to rescue us. There is a connection between Thoth and Yahshua. If anyone knows about the 4th dimension, the astral realm it’s Thoth and Yahshua. One has to think why does the name Jesus Christ has so much power in the astral realm, the dark forces fall back when that name is spoken. There is power in the name Jesus Christ. But that’s another topic.

I want to end this here, the children of Israel, those who are in God’s covenant, truly need to listen and be obedient. It’s really time that we know who ancestors are and the bloodline that the children of Israel descend from. I hope my people know that we descend from the royal bloodline of Enki. Yahshua’s bloodline traces back to Enki, the ancient Father. Adapa/Adam was a son an Enki. Noah was also a son of Enki. It’s all there when you do the research and get into the Lost Book of Enki. It was an eye opener for me, and I was shocked. I wanted to learn about the Anunnaki, their significance in the Bible, and the impact they had on the lives of our ancient ancestors. Even Enoch walked with the Lord Enki and the Anunnaki. The Lord Enki selected him, elevating him to the priesthood of the Anunnaki, where he was initiated into the mystery school.

Enoch knew about the fallen angels who were corrupt extraterrestrial beings, and we know them today as the Igigi who were once stationed on Mars, and then they descended to Earth and did all sort of things. If you say that you are a descendant from the 12 tribes of Israel than you need to know who your ancient ancestors are and I’m referring to your royal lineage with the Anunnaki Gods. We really are royalty. We would descend from Kings and Queens so technically we would be princes and princesses. Now all the Anunnaki were not pure in heart, and they had their evil ways just like humans. They have light and darkness within them as well and we were created in their image. They are simply our ancestors, and our ancient ancestors honored and praised the Anunnaki Gods because they were our heavenly/star family that came here on chariots/spaceships. Our ancient ancestors lived among them, walked beside them, and saw them face to face. Some of them were highly spiritual and these were in the mystery schools. The Anunnaki are technologically advanced beings, and they taught humanity and build up civilization on the Earth. They weren’t all good; every individual carries both light and darkness within them, and as humans, we need to acknowledge that these aspects are part of who we are.

In ancient text it was the Lord Enki, who was the benevolent God who build a holy temple. Enki had some light and darkness in him, and I think some people just try to focus on the negative aspects to him. But he was a good person, and he wanted to save and help humanity. But I want to say this, our ancestors served the time of 400 years in slavery and the fulfilment of that prophecy happened in 2019. I’m not sure if anyone else noticed but the new solar cycle began in December 2019. I got extremely sick during that time and not too soon after this the plague of Covid happened. To me it was the start of the Great Tribulation. This plaque was another attack from the enemy. Covid was created to target the mass population, and they wanted to kill a lot of people. This is so sad. The dark forces on earth wanted to create fear and panic amongst the population. We had to stay in our homes, but this was the time that we really started using our minds and reading. I even started my own business. So many people started their own businesses, and we started doing good for ourselves.

But the real plaques are about to begin, and I really think that karma is going to return to those who have been coming against God’s holy people, and I will leave it at that. Evil and wickedness have grown on earth, and many people continue to accumulate karmic debt instead of correcting their wrongs, leading to a time when it must be repaid. I feel sorry for those who continue to do wrong, and I just wish everyone would repent of their sins, turn back to God, and choose to do what’s right. Just as the Israelites endured their trials, those who disrupt and destroy life on the planet will face their own karma. It’s a righteous judgment. God’s people only need to hold on a little longer, and we will be delivered. Our God is with us! Keep living a righteous life, and you will be rewarded by God. Let the wicked continue their ways, as they too must learn their lessons, just as we once did. -Seraphim Sophia

Testimony of the Saints

End of 40 Day Purification of the Mind: 11/7/2017

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Shalom Brothers and Sisters it has come to the end of the 40 day purification of the mind. This period of time has been the most difficult for me. I thought that I would have experienced joy and happiness but instead I have experienced anger and frustration.  I have been surrounded around negative energy and I have tried to release that energy. The other day as the waters poured upon me in the shower I took a deep breath 12 times. Each time I took a deep breath I released all of the negative energy within my whole being in all four directions. I took my finger and inscribed on the door of the shower 3 marks on each side visualizing the camps of Israel. Why did I do this? I know that everything I do seems to be symbolic.  Only the Creator knows it’s true revelation.

As of now, there is still more work to do.  I am hurt from all that I’ve experienced while being here on this earth and at this stage in my life I am struggling with the pain. I desire to be set free from all that is hurting me but most importantly I desire for the whole world to be set free from bondage. Deliverance is necessary and the Creator will save us. It saddens me to know that most of the world is in darkness. Most people are hurting inside and most people don’t know how to deal with the hurt and pain. It’s easy for someone to say pray but healing is a process and it takes time. When faced with trials and tribulations I feel like fleeing to a place of safety.  I feel like being alone with the Creator so I can recharge. I need the Creator’s LOVE to fill my mind, body and soul. I need his light to shine upon me. I desire the purest thoughts.  I need to merge with his pure light energy. I need the highest form of energy (love) in the universe to descend upon me. It is the Creator’s love that I desire right now.

Hear my cry O’ Father, send help my way. Raise my vibration to the highest frequency. Love is what I need. Purification is what I seek. Rescue me from this darkness surrounding me.

Holy Spirit, I need you in this very moment in Time. I have descended in the world and have forgot who I am. Remind me, allow me to remember who I am when things get tough in this world. To my fellow brothers and sisters please pray for me! Send your love and light my way! Right now at this very moment I need your positive energy. I honestly feel like I am getting attacked and this energy is very strong. It seems to be dominating me and its really hard to break away.  I am fighting this battle and I’m enduring to the end. I am weak right now but I know that Yahshua and the holy angels are fighting for me as before. I put my Trust in the Creator not man. Man has hurt me, betrayed me and lied to me. My help comes from above and The Creator always send help my way.

Deliver me O’ Father for we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. 

I know I have been sent here for a purpose and I want so badly to complete my mission. Father please help me refocus on spiritual things and help me gain spiritual knowledge and wisdom.  All that I have done is not in vain and I know that it’s a reason for everything. During this time of darkness, I need clarity in my mind. Please cleanse me Father and continue to help me on my journey. I know I have been releasing negativity into the atmosphere but all negative energy will be purified. I know myself for I am an open book, I am honest and I seek the truth. I must express myself and with that said I have cried out to the Creator in my distress.

Who knows maybe I must experience this negative energy to be able to understand what is transpiring on a global level. I always say that wisdom is obtained through experience. All that I have experienced is being sent back to the Source, The Creator. All data is being collected and stored in the library of heaven. All realities and experiences are sent back to the Source. We are all connected to Source Energy, a Collective consciousness expanding through Time and Space. The Creator is infinite wisdom and it is through us that the Creator experiences All things. The eyes of the Creator are EVERYWHERE!

I would like to leave you with this.

My dear ones, be on guard as negative energy is being amplified on this earth. Things are quickly manifesting here and you all have to be very careful with your thoughts. When all fails think about LOVE!

LOVE is the highest frequency in the universe. The Creator is LOVE, You are LOVE and the Creator’s  LIGHT is shining upon us all! Always remember this no matter what. I LOVE YOU LIGHT BEINGS! 

Written by Sister Carter

Awakening Dreams and Visions

Dream on June 4, 2016: Fighting A Demon And Being Delivered By The Father

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Shalom Brothers and Sisters I had a dream this morning and it was very interesting. The Most High allowed me to see how a demon can take over a person when a person gets angry. Warning: Please don’t allow someone to get you so angry that you commit a sin. Ephesians 4:26-27, “And “don’t sin by letting anger control you.” Don’t let the sun go down while you are still angry.”

In the dream I was trying to save someone from drowning. After I saved the man from drowning I started to yell and scream at the other person who was just standing there watching the man drown. I couldn’t understand why he just stood there while the man was struggling in the water. For some reason I had enough strength to save the man by myself. Afterwards I turned to the other man and I became really angry with him. Then all of a sudden I started to transform and something took over my body. I then saw that it was a demon and the demon was within me. It’s like I invited him due to my anger. I saw that the demon was very angry and the demon was screaming and yelling just like I was doing. The Most High showed me that demons are associated with anger. When I was yelling and screaming I could see that people were afraid of me and my image.

In the spirit I saw the image of the demon and so did the people and that’s why they were frightened. But the demon took over me and it was controlling me. In the spirit I was fighting with this demon and I commanded for it to leave my body but the demon didn’t want to leave from me because I had given power to the demon by getting angry. The demon fought with me and we continued to fight. I wanted full control over my body but he did too. I was fighting the demon of anger and I wanted to destroy that demon. As I was fighting with this beast I realized that I couldn’t do it by myself so I prayed to the Father and I called on the name of Yahshua. After I did this the Father showed up immediately but he came in the form of some type of living being.  Then the Father placed his hand upon my body and pulled the demon out of me and in a blink of an eye people saw me transform into my true form and I became a light being. They saw my spiritual form and I was shining bright. It happened so fast and I felt the change in my body. After this happened I bowed to the Father and thanked him for saving me. He delivered me from that demon.

I thought this was an amazing dream because the Father is confirming what really happens when people get angry. It is very important for people to know that demons are attached to sin.  Sin is increasing all over the world which means there are armies of demons taking over the world. It is time for people to wake up because darkness is spreading all over the earth. Demons (evil spirits) are controlling people through their sin and many people don’t even realize it. If people could see into the spirit realm I’m sure they will be frightened by the sight of the demons that are dwelling with them. The truth is man gives power to these demons. Take away their power by getting rid of sin in your life. Just know when you put up a fight they will fight back and you will need the Father’s help. He will send his angels to fight for you. If you keep committing sin the demons will not leave from you, they will increase and you will continue to be in bondage. Demons keep you away from the truth that’s why so many people are deceived in this world. Come out of the world and put on your armor of God. It’s time to battle these demons. Destroy them by getting rid of sin. The Father can and will help you.

Written by Sister Carter (Athaleyah)

Testimony of the Saints, Words of Wisdom

Soul Purpose: Hearken to the voice of the Spirit

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Soul Purpose: Hearken to the voice of the Spirit

Shalom Brother and Sisters! I want to share more details of my testimonies which include real experiences while being caught up in the spirit. In many of my posts I have revealed and interpreted dreams, visions, and different events that have occurred in my life. It’s hard to describe but when I am in deep thought/meditation I feel like I am connected to the Holy Spirit in many ways and many mysteries and revelations are constantly downloaded in my mind. Upon awakening out of my sleep I hear myself talking like I’m reading a book or something. The voice that I hear sounds like my voice but it seems like it’s coming from an angel who is the keeper of knowledge and wisdom. It’s like my mind is connected to the source. I don’t understand it all but it is really amazing when this happens. It’s like I’m being taught in the spirit while I’m sleeping. I desire wisdom so my sole purpose is to grow spiritually daily. I am constantly seeking the mysteries of heaven. I desire to get deeper into the Word because in the Word I hear my Father calling out to me and I follow his voice. When I seek my Father with all of my heart he opens up heaven’s gate and sens blessings my way and he grants me wisdom.  In the appointed times I am led to share mysteries within myself which sometimes reveals mysteries of heaven. I remain humble knowing that I am a daughter of Yah (God). I simply want to be obedient to my Father even if I don’t understand everything he has given me but I continue to ask questions and I patiently wait for a response. I am told constantly in the spirit to lean not on your own understanding. I am only the messenger and I bring forth what my Father gives me in the spirit so come and explore my world and enter into my mind that is connected to the source.

One day I was outside smelling the fresh air and I saw a dragonfly flying near me. Immediately I closed my eyes and I saw myself in heaven. My home was on the beach and I was on the balcony looking at the waves in the ocean.  My home was overlooking the ocean and it was all that I had imagined. Suddenly I had the feeling to prepare myself. This was the beginning of my mission and I had to get myself clean because I knew in the spirit that Yahshua was soon coming to get his Bride. I lifted up my voice and said, “The Lord is my God.” I repeated this several times as I was making a call to my love in the spirit. I then saw myself as an invisible spirit near my love’s ears and I was trying to get him to hearken to me.  Afterwards I stepped out of the waters; clean and purified. I looked around and in the spirit I was told that I must keep my robe white and spotless. My mind was connected to the spirit and I had heard what the spirit hath said. I willingly obeyed the spirit and I was being led by the spirit. I was told, “Don’t be distracted” as if this was the appointed time to hearken to my Father’s commandment. Would I be obedient? The Father tested me and immediately my phone started ringing. I ignored the call. Then my phone started to ring multiple times back to back. I still ignored the calls. I had to listen to what the Spirit had said. I was officially sent on my divine mission and I was following instructions. I was completely under the control of the Holy Spirit (My Heavenly Mother).

It has been revealed that she was my guide. She has always been my guide when I was living in darkness for she had comforted me when I was in distress during trials and tribulations in my life. The Holy Spirit purged sin out of my life and provided light during the darkest stages in my life. I kept faith as she has always had faith from the very beginning. I begin to sing praises to the Most High and worship him in my home. I danced around and I felt so much joy in my soul. I was in the process of being restored. I called upon my savior and he was about to deliver my soul out of chaos and darkness. I had repented over and over again and I so desired to be let free from the cage/prison that I was in. I wanted to be set free from the chains of bondage which was the bondage of sin. My Father has heard my prayers and have heard my cries during my days of living in darkness. While I was in darkness I didn’t know how I would get away from Satan. He held me as a prisoner and I didn’t want to sin. He tried to take my power from me but he didn’t know that I would gain my power back at the appointed time. For it was my Father’s will that I would descend down to the lower realms of consciousness which would be a path of darkness and chaos. Satan waited for me and planned to attack me as soon as I was born in this world and at the appointed time I made a choice and due to that choice I became self-willed and unleashed a serpent power that enmanated from my mind and that same serpent power trapped me because I hearkened to that power but I was ignorant. I needed to be taught and I needed to be disciplined.

As I grew up I continued to get stinged, like a sting of a scorpion, constantly being tormented due to the bad choices that I continued to make. I was in pain and I was longing to be delivered from this pain. I didn’t see the end result of all of this suffering but my Father did. He knew in advance that I would be made perfect and complete in the end but first I would have to suffer in pain waiting to be delivered. I had to learn many lessons as his child. He tested my faith and he taught me to hearken to his voice. He taught me the difference between obedience and disobedience. His plan in me would bring forth a transformation from imperfection to perfection. I used to dwell in the darkness but now I dwell in the light. I never wanted to dwell in the dark but it was destined for my life because my Father had a plan for me. There are 2 forces that exists and these 2 forces battle with each other which is good and evil.

*Which one do you chose to give power to? Be careful on the choice you make because it will manifest in your life.

But the Most High knew that I would be transformed into a spiritual light being in Time. I was transformed in his appointed time and that’s the key to it all. The mystery is the Father’s time. During a particular time in my life Yahshua came in the spirit and I saw him through someone that I had loved with all my heart. This person walked out of the door but before he walked out he looked back at me with a certain look on his face and I still reflect on it till this day. Before he had walked out I had made a decision to let him go because I felt in the spirit My Father was about to do something in my life.  I have searched deep within to understand why this person came into my life and why he was removed from my life. I loved him so much that I had to find out the meaning of his name. It was later revealed that his name means “The Lord is my God.” So many things were being revealed to me in the spirit and my focus was on getting to know Yahshua and the Father better. By seeking them both I would know the meaning of true love. During the midst of my transformation I was waiting for the person that I was dating to return to me but it was revealed that is was Yahshua that I was waiting for. I was preparing myself like a Bride. I knew it was a sign that Yahshua would soon return because he confirmed it in a dream that I had and when I saw him I was so happy because we were reuniting again and Yahshua told me that he would come and get me tomorrow. I have been waiting patiently for Yahshua to return to me ever since that dream. He gave me hope and I continue to have faith in what he told me. I love him very much and I want to share more things with you.

I was once the unfaithful wife who had committed adultery. Before I got married I had always desired true love. When I was old enough to be in a relationship I wanted love to be the foundation of my relationship even though I didn’t have a full understanding about love. I knew that love was good so I desired it naturally. I felt like my love was always pure and I was seeking the same pure love. True love is what I have seeked from the very beginning. I always wanted to love and receive the same love back. At times in my relationships I felt like I was giving 100% of me when others were giving less of them to me. I had loved so hard to the point that I couldn’t discern what true love was anymore. I was accepting things that I shouldn’t have accepted and believing lies. My love was taken for granted and I experienced so much heartache after my first boyfriend had been unfaithful to me. I couldn’t understand why but I had a forgiving heart until it continued to happen over and over again. I became furious and wrathful and later became revengeful due to unfaithfulness. I was young and foolish and I didn’t know how to deal with the pain that I was feeling. As I got older I became more gullible. I was also abused physically and emotionally which I picked up bad habits and became a violet and nonchalant person; no longer being considerate of other people’s feelings.

So much was coming upon me and I didn’t understand why. I was blind and I was asleep. It’s like I was turning into an evil beast because I was always angry and doing evil things. I had no self-control. When I became angry I sinned more. Please read my post called Battling Demons: My Testimony which goes into details of my deliverance. I experienced homosexuality and indulged in the works of the flesh and I suffered great pain in my body. I ate the fruits off of the tree of knowledge of good and evil. I have experienced both good and evil in my life and now I know the difference from good and evil. I became a broken woman and my heart was broken into so many pieces. My faith became shattered when I was in this dark state. While growing up I never experienced the love from my Father because he wasn’t in my life but I was and am blessed to have a very strong mother who is the best mother of all. My mother loved me through it all even when I was rebellious. She was the one who comforted me when I was in darkness. She was the one who uplifted me in prayer and she continued to pray for me. She has always been there for me and she came to rescue me when I needed her the most. I remember when I was a child and I always use to cling to her. I learned many things from my mother and she also disciplined me. I remember a time when I was disobedient and she kicked me out of the house. I then traveled far away from home. I started to miss being home so I begged to come back. She told me that I had to be obedient and follow her rules. I told her that I would but my heart still wasn’t right.

When I returned back home I was still disobedient. I wanted to do what I wanted to do. Ignorantly I unleashed the self-willed serpent power. I gave birth to this evil power and it began to control my life.  I became sneaky and cunning in all my ways. I learned evil and I began to live in the dark and Satan became my ruler. I set him up in my temple (body) and I was worshipping self. Satan is against the will of the Most High and Satan is self-willed and self-centered. He only wants his way. It’s like I had created a false god. By choosing to follow self I was placing myself above the Most High. As time went on deep down inside I still desired real love. I was still confused but I was trying to find my way. I decided to get married at the age of 20 and at this time I thought everything was going to be better. So when I got married things started to get out of control and things didn’t go as I had planned. We were having problems and we didn’t know how to deal with them. We went to church but we didn’t truly live the Word and understand the Word. Later I became the adulterous wife. My heart was broken by my husband and I had thoughts about someone else and I thought since he was unfaithful I would be unfaithful too. Later I tried to fix our marriage by offering to go to counseling but he rejected and we continued to be separated until we divorced. I cried many times and I poured out my heart to the Most High but it seem like my prayers were never answered. I was miserable and I continued to suffer great pain. I felt ashamed and I officially knew what it felt like to be rejected and it was a horrible feeling.

My husband rejected me so nothing else mattered after that. Everything was going wrong and I tried to fix things on my own and things got worse. I started to give up after a year and had little faith and that’s when I went further down the wrong path. I entered into the realms of darkness and I was in the center/heart of hell. My words were always, “This is how I feel.” Jeremiah 17:9 states, “The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it?” The more I indulged in sin the deeper the pit expanded in hell and that is why it is called the bottomless pit. Just to let you know hell is still expanding due to the sins of the world. But I started to become selfish and I started to do my own will.  I became self-willed. I went away from the light because I didn’t know how to endure the pain.

While being in deep thought I saw that the serpent’s power was rising up and it turned against me. It wanted to dominate my life. I went into a deeper darkness and I dwelt in the bottomless pit. I lived in chaos and it was scary and terrifying. As soon as I entered this dark place the demons followed me and they attacked me. It’s like they were waiting for me at the gates of hades. They took me and chained me up in a cage/prison for many years. I then saw a light shining after many years and I desired to be in that light. I then surrendered to God. As soon as I was sincere about making a change in my life Yahshua came into hades with the keys to set me free. Revelation 1:18 states, “I am he that liveth, and was dead; and, behold, I am alive for evermore, Amen; and have the keys of hell and of death.” John 8:36 states, “If the Son therefore shall make you free, ye shall be free indeed.” He removed the chains from me and I am no longer a slave to sin. He help me to defeat my enemy. I was beaten and bruised and I fell down but my Father and Yahshua helped me back up because they are my strength. When I was weak Yahshua was my strength and he is still my strength and that’s why I trust in him and he is guarding my heart.

It’s like he is my other half and he has been my husband this whole time. He has been here through thick and thin and now I know he will never leave me nor forsake me. I entered into a covenant with him at the age of 14 on January 1, 1999 and I asked him to come into my life and I got saved but I had no idea what it truly meant to be saved until now. At the age of 14 I had no idea of the trials and tribulations that I would go through. I was 27 years old when I surrendered to God and it was 13 years that I had experienced being in the dark. I experience so many things during that time period and he has changed my life forever. When I fully trusted him he took my hand and he led me through the valley of the shadow of death. He taught me to fear no evil and he told me to keep my eyes on him always so I did and I still am. As I walked towards the light I felt the dark energy from the demons that surrounded me, and I knew they hated me because they couldn’t fulfill their evil desires through me anymore.  I continued to walk with Yahshua to the gates and I was free indeed. I was on my way to a new beginning. I experienced a 7 day period of cleansing and purification and on the last day I was revived and he raised me up. I plunged through the fire (sun) and I survived like the Comet LoveJoy. I was and am alive. I got a new set of wings now and this is my new beginning and it has been 3 years and I am loving my spiritual walk. During this journey I had to learn how to hearken unto my Heavenly Father’s voice and learn how to reject and ignore the serpent’s voice that is the self-willed power within my mind. I now have self- control and I have learned the fruits of the spirit. I am aware and I am knowledgeable about the works of the flesh. I now can test the spirit and use discernment and I know how to use my power within for good and not for evil. I don’t want to go back into darkness ever again.  I’m no longer ignorant anymore and when I need to know something I will ask my Heavenly Father. I will seek his approval at all times and I will continue to follow his will and with that said I have gained true wisdom.

My whole life I was seeking for true love when true love was up above in my Heavenly Father. I’m so thankful that My Father sent his Son to be the perfect example of Love. Through Yahshua I found true love and I have been reunited with my Heavenly Father and the Holy Spirit (Heavenly Mother). Heaven is my original dwelling place and I am so glad that I have found my way back home. I know that obedience is required to go back home to the heavenly kingdom and I am making sure that I am being obedient. The Holy Spirit has guided me back home and she has also taught me the knowledge of good and evil. I desire wisdom and all those who hate wisdom loves death. Now I know more about my soul purpose and in the beginning of time when I came forth I desired to know wisdom and obtain knowledge. It didn’t happen the way that I thought but I have been learning that it was the Father’s will and he allowed everything to happen in his timing. I am now understanding the plan that he has for my life. I wanted so badly for my ex-husband to forgive me and accept me back when my true husband (Yahshua) forgave me and accepted me back and this has brought me so much joy in my life because I no longer feel rejected. I feel loved and he is the one who is now protecting my heart. He is hiding me under his wings and I feel safe. I wanted to be saved and he saved me. I cried out for help and he rescued me. I repented of my sins and he forgave me. I wanted life and he gave me life. He has given me hope and my faith has returned. Now I know that I must endure and remain patient and faithful through all trials and tribulations that may come my way because I know for a fact that My Father is here with me. I have the armies of heaven on my side and it’s amazing to know that I am truly loved. I was unfaithful and now I have become faithful. I know to keep my Father first and to not put trust in man. Yahshua will return to pick up his Bride at the command of my Father. Please prepare yourselves because the marriage will soon take place and the door will open soon. We will be reunited with our heavenly family and we will be presented to our Heavenly Father and we will receive our rewards. Thank the Most High that he has restored the woman. Hallelujah!

Written by Sister Carter (Athaleyah)