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Eyes Of The Lord: The Witnesses

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I am one with the Creator and I am not alone because I understand that the Creator lives in me. The Creator observes all of creation through the eyes of all of his creation both male and female. I understand the Creator observes the world through my eyes and he views from all angles what I see through my eyes. I am a living testimony. I understand that I am a witness and my Father who is with me is the other witness.  As Yahshua said, “The Father who sent me is with me. In John 8:18 Yahshua said, “I am one witness, and my Father who sent me is the other.” Only those who truly understand their oneness with the Creator will understand the words I speak. 

My dear ones, it is the same for the children of the light, I tell you the truth we are all his witnesses. Each of us have our own individual testimony and the Creator is your witness and he stands by your side always. You know the truth and so does the Father. It doesn’t matter if no one believes your testimony because he witnessed it all. The truth has been documented and recorded. The Father has angels assigned to every living creature and our records are stored in the library of heaven. 

Each and every day we are a witness to the good and the evil in this world. There’s no need to place judgment on others for they have already judged themselves. When people commit evil works, evil eventually returns to those people. The Creator will bring justice to his people. Deuteronomy‬ ‭32:35‬ states, “To me belongeth vengeance, and recompence; their foot shall slide in due time: for the day of their calamity is at hand, and the things that shall come upon them make haste.” Hebrews 10:30-31 states, “For we know him that hath said, Vengeance belongeth unto me, I will recompense, saith the Lord. And again, The Lord shall judge his people. It is a fearful thing to fall into the hands of the living God.”

So it is important not to repay evil with evil. The Father led me out of darkness (ignorance) and brought me into the light (knowledge). The Father saved me and the Holy Spirit taught me. I am one of the redeemed ones. I have learned many things through all my experiences, trials and tribulations and one was not to take revenge or hold grudges against others. I understand that we must do good unto those who mistreat us. It is not easy but we must learn self-control. It may not be easy but we must follow the path of Yahshua by saying, “Father forgive them for they know not what they do.” The Creator separated light from darkness so that we can identify the nature of each. 

Proverbs 4:18-19 states, “But the path of the just is as the shining light, that shineth more and more unto the perfect day. The way of the wicked is as darkness: they know not at what they stumble.”

So understand this my dear brothers and sisters, we are witnesses to both good and evil while living on this earth. It seems as though we can identify the good and evil in others before identifying the good and evil within ourselves. It is important that we continue to evaluate ourselves daily by judging ourselves. Truly we must get ourselves right in the sight of the Lord. Do not focus on judging others but judge yourself. You should know what’s right and wrong and if for some reason you don’t  the Most High provided the commandments for you to know. Proverbs 4:7 states, “Wisdom is the principal thing; therefore get wisdom: and with all thy getting get understanding.”

‭I will leave you with this. Remember the eyes of the Creator are everywhere. 

Proverbs 15:3 states, “The eyes of the Lord are in every place, beholding the evil and the good.” Proverbs 5:21 states, “For the ways of man are before the eyes of the Lord, and he pondereth all his goings.” Psalms 34:15 states, “The eyes of the Lord are upon the righteous, and his ears are open unto their cry.”

Written by Sister Carter (Goddess of Love and Light) 333

Love and Light

My Soul’s Journey

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My soul was awakened and I started receiving my light code in the year 2011. My activation code is 333 and it is the code for working with the masters of ascended love and light, the higher light beings in higher realms. I experienced many different events in my life beginning in 2012 and those events transformed my life. I gave birth to a New Reality. My reality was changed in 2012 and I can’t go back to the way I use to think. I have merged with my higher self and now my mind is focused on higher knowledge, spiritual ascension, and Love and Light in the Universe. Throughout many posts on this page I use to write about the earth’s destruction according to the bible, Nibiru, chariots of the Most High, and the return of Yahshua. I shared many dreams and gave my interpretations of the dreams. I also discussed the heavens, the angels and countless numbers of worlds in the universe. My mind has been all over the place because I don’t limit my mind. I seek many things so that I can get an understanding.

Some days I am led back to certain posts and now I have a different understanding of the things that I have written. Some posts I wrote came directly from a higher source and I couldn’t believe I wrote it. I was inspired by Love and Light beings and my higher self took over. I now desire to send out more love and light messages. If you know Yahshua, the true light, then you will receive the light messages that are being sent to this earth through many souls. His love and light is here and he is guiding us from the spiritual realms. Many souls have descended here to help with the mission of spreading  love and light messages from the higher realms. Yahshua is working in the heavenly kingdoms and we are the light-workers assisting the heavenly realms.

Life on earth is not easy so we light-workers must stay focused on our mission because you can become easily distracted in the flesh. When I communicated with the higher beings telepathically in 2012 I was told not to become distracted. Well unfortunately I became distracted with life and it’s trials and tribulations but I am always led back to my ministry page.  The times are changing and we are entering into a new reality. LOVE will continue to manifest throughout this earth and throughout the universe.

The goal of my love and light messages is to awaken your souls. I want LOVE to manifest in the hearts of humanity.

I see the beauty in God’s creation and I don’t want to see death and destruction even though it exists here. I want to see the good in all things and visualize a new creation filled with love and light. If you are reading this then the universe is speaking to you. Be one with the light and express love in all that you do. Focus on positive things, and give and receive positive energy. Understand the negative energies that you have within you and transcend negative energy. I know it’s not easy dealing with the negative energy in our own life but we must come face to face with our negative energy so that we can make a change. Each day is a new day where you can change your attitude, thoughts,  and actions.

In the past I use to focus on the day of judgement in the bible and all I was attracted to was end time videos. All I saw was chaos and destruction and I shared the videos on this page. I had to make a change because I didn’t want to put all of my energy towards the day of judgement events and all of the end time signs. Looking at all of those things made me feel sad for the world, I didn’t feel joy and happiness inside. It is obvious that the earth is going through some changes due to the incoming waves of energies from the other solar system that is merging with our solar system.  I gave the warnings for purification during that time and I completed that task. Now I’m moving on to a different level and I must complete a new task.  I now have eyes to see through different realities and balance is the key.

Everyone has a purpose in life and it’s important that you work on fulfilling your purpose. This ministry page is part of my mission here on this earth and it is my testimony of all of my experiences and life lessons. It is a transformational period of my soul’s journey on earth.

Written by Sister Carter (Goddess of Love and Light) <<<333>>>

Testimony of the Saints

My Testimony: The Beginning to My Journey

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My Testimony

Ephesians 6:11-17states: Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand. Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness; And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace; Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked. And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God:

I never really understood how much these verses meant until I found myself facing demons. It started at a very young age (around 7 or 8) when I found a porn magazine in my bathroom hamper. I was curious so I looked through it and put it back in my hamper. I was back and forth in the bathroom frequently to look at the pictures in the magazine. I eventually took the magazine and gave it to my father as if I had just found it. Thus my battle began with lying and seducing demons. I started finding videos of porn and was watching them quite frequently. I would wake up early or wake up late in the night and watch them while everyone was asleep. I found myself exploring my curiosity with my female friends. I would convince them to “try” certain things with me that I had seen (I was feeding the lusting and seducing demons by sinning and giving in to my fleshly desires). Keep in mind I was 8. An 8 year old should know nothing about these things. The innocence that a child should have at that age was non-existent for me. I believe this was around the time that I actually was in my room and saw demons around my bed. An angel who was sitting at the foot of my bed stood up and took out a sword and spread its wings. As I grew older so did the demons (I was continuously feeding them) and the demons started bringing in more demons. I believe between the ages of 10 – 11, I tried to commit suicide by attempting to hang myself. I cannot tell you why I even had the thought or wanted to act on it. I found myself being held down in my sleep and I would call on Yahshua (Jesus at the time because I did not know his name was Yahshua).

When I was 15, I met a young lady at a church event and we started dating. Things were going very well, however that went down the drain when I found out she had gotten pregnant by someone else. The messed up part was that she did not tell me, I happened to meet him at my friend’s house because he was now dating my friend and she was actually the one to tell me. He told me what happened  when I called my girlfriend at the time. It was just a bad day for her and I called it quits, he had left her already and she had already had an abortion trying to cover it up. She told me she was hoping I did not find out and was asking me how I met the guy and everything and I let her know. From that point I really did not care anymore and my porn addiction got worse. I found myself not caring more and more. I started to feel what I call “dark.” The betrayal had a huge effect on me. Although I found myself getting “dark” I still had a desire to be truthful, I had a really hard time trusting women. I did not want another women paying for what my ex did. (What I have come to realize is that I failed to deal with these issues and instead I suppressed what I was going through and I deceived myself into believing that I was “good,” when I really wasn’t). I noticed that in relationships moving forward the truth faded away and the lying demon grew. If I was seeing more than one young lady, I let them know and it was up to them if they wanted to deal with me or not. This “honesty” was just as bad as telling a lie. No matter how you look at it, it was not right. At the end of the day I was messing with a woman’s heart and that is not of the Most High. It was me pleasing my flesh. I found myself wanting to date one of my friends and she told me she would not date me because she knew how I was. I actually convinced her that I would not break her heart and I would be real with her. Although my intentions were good and I meant it at the time, I eventually gave into my flesh. I actually started seeing another girl a few months after I started seeing my friend. I started seeing the new girl based on a promise that I made to her a couple of years before I started seeing my friend. I told her that when she got to high school we could date. I allowed myself to believe I was in the right because I felt that keeping my promise was honorable. This is how easy it is to start deceiving yourself. You find yourself justifying and rationalizing things that you know are wrong. I eventually got fed up lying to both young ladies and told them about each other. Not only did I break both girls hearts what made it even worse was the young ladies were cousins. My lying broke so many hearts. The very thing I said I wasn’t going to do, I did. Each woman paid for what my ex did. I did not trust any woman so I just didn’t care. The truth of the matter was I wanted to be with my ex as crazy as it sounds, I did, looking back it was lust. Lust was the reason why I wanted to go back. The lusting, seducing demon that had entered me when I was younger….she had them too. I realized the relationship with my ex was based on looks. I like the way she looked and I wanted her. The funny thing is when we first met I was interested in her friend and my friend was interested in her. By the end of the night I ended up with my ex and my friend was with my ex’s friend. My ex told me she wanted and she did not care if I was interested in her friend. She told her friend she wanted me and her friend back down.

As a result of the demons controlling my life, I found myself seducing females just to see if I could get them. There was nothing sexual about it. I just wanted a challenge and once I got the woman, I got bored because there was no longer a challenge. I found myself lying to certain people just to lie especially when it came to cheating. I would cover for friends they would cover for me.

Not caring led me to start drinking more; the suicidal demon had made a return. I was 17 and this time I attempted suicide by overdosing on muscle relaxers. The Most High spared me. I was in a deep state of depression. I don’t think anyone could really tell since I kept my issues to myself. I focused more on helping others and not paying attention to what was going on with me. I wanted to fight other people’s demons when I should have been focusing on getting rid of mine. Even though I was helping others I see now I was actually taking their demons into me. I felt the light in me starting to dim more and more. There was one night that my friends and I were going to a party. We did a lot of drinking before the party and then we headed there. I remember at the end of the party when we headed out we decided to have a race. I believe it was about 8 of us. I remember I kept the lead and my friend almost caught up when I looked down I saw I was going 120 MPH. something dropped into my friend’s engine causing his car to slow down. Not too long after that I lost control of my car on a curve and began spinning around. I remember seeing my friends and other cars heading my direction. I can remember thinking this is just like NASCAR; however the next thought was I am about to die what am I going to tell my parents. I felt my car roll backwards even though I was in drive and hit the partition wall. I was facing oncoming traffic. I remember sitting there for a minute taking in what just happened. I hoped out of my car to check how much damage. It looked like the back of my car was banged up and a lot of paint was missing. I got back in my car turned around and headed to the next exit since that was the exit to my house. I called my friend on his phone and told him to meet me at Pathmark (grocery store) that was not too far from the exit. When we met up he told me how the only thing he could think about when he saw me spinning was how was he going to tell my parents that I died? He just couldn’t do it. We wiped my car down with a scratch remover and it looked like nothing happen to my car. I had minor paint damage; you could not even tell that I hit a wall.

Not too long after the accident, I decided that I wanted to be a one woman man. No more lying, no more seducing. I wanted a real relationship. I started seeing a young lady however it did not last long she had her own demons and she caused trust issues. I started dating another young lady same thing she had her own demons and created trust issues. I actually started dating a young lady and things were actually going good. She suddenly ended the relationship she told me I had made her soft because she fell for me. I thought she was joking, however she was very serious. She told me she was not use to a man treating her so well. She was use to guys calling her out her name, cheating on her and having all kind of drama with them. With me she did not have issues like that and it messed her up, she felt like she did not deserve me. That one I really did not understand. I eventually started dating another young lady however she just could not remain faithful. Even when she got caught she still lied to my face and thought by crying it was going to change everything. I was done with her. Just when I was getting better with trusting this took a big chunk out of my progress. I found myself getting into the same type of relationship over and over again. I even got back in touch with women in my past thinking since I had changed maybe I could get it right with them. Seems like the ones I chose were no different than the ex I just dealt with. At the age of 19, just when I felt like giving up and being by myself my friend’s girlfriend introduced me to her best friend. The weird part was not too long after the young lady and I got together, my friend and his girlfriend broke up (probably should have saw this as a sign). I talked to the young lady on the phone for about a month before we saw each other. We entered into a relationship. Not too long after the relationship began her issues started to appear. I felt I could be that man that stood by her side and help her through her issues. After 2 years had gone by we got married. We thought we loved each other enough to get married; however a big part of the reason was because of fear. We were told how we were not living right and we were constantly reminded of 1 Corinthians 7:9 which states: But if they cannot contain, let them marry: for it is better to marry than to burn. I also believed that marrying her would help deal with her issues. I believed that I had conquered all my issues when I got married. The only real issue I had was watching porn. I found that I was watching porn when I was mad or frustrated. I was upfront and honest with her, no seduction, no other women; I really thought that we were good. Due to her own family issues it weighed down heavy on our marriage. I was accused of things that I actually was not doing. Things seem to get better after my daughter was born, because she came in the 26th week of pregnancy so our focus had shifted. My daughter remained her focus for quite some time, during this time I was in constant prayer and fasting. About 3 years after my daughter’s birth the issues that I thought went away pertaining to my wife’s family came back worse than before. My wife created trust issues by being sneaky and deceitful which led us to be unfaithful. I saw how miserable my daughter was with me and my ex wife together and I did not want her crying anymore. We went our separate ways and divorced shortly after. Issues with trust once again became a factor in my life; in addition to that I now had a child on the way with another woman. The one thing I took from it was if a woman was going to be sneaky and deceitful, then she had no place in my life. I just was not dealing with it anymore. I wasn’t innocent. I stepped out I did not remain true to my vows. Whether she did it first or not does not even matter the fact of the matter is I stepped out. With now facing a failed marriage I started drinking and smoking again. Everything with my son’s mother was more drama then good from the start, she had her own personal and family issues and I saw the path it was heading down and I refused to deal with it again. For my children’s sake I had to do something different. There had to be a better way. With the help from The Most High I conquered and defeated my demons. I had some knowledge of the truth while going through my journey; however my awakening went to a new level in 2013. I am improving daily. With trying to live righteously the enemy is constantly trying to attack me. I always keep in mind that I must remain strong in the Most High. The Most High has been very good and I am very thankful for Yahshua.

Written by Obadiyah (Brother Whitfield)

Testimony of the Saints, Words of Wisdom

Soul Purpose: Hearken to the voice of the Spirit

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Soul Purpose: Hearken to the voice of the Spirit

Shalom Brother and Sisters! I want to share more details of my testimonies which include real experiences while being caught up in the spirit. In many of my posts I have revealed and interpreted dreams, visions, and different events that have occurred in my life. It’s hard to describe but when I am in deep thought/meditation I feel like I am connected to the Holy Spirit in many ways and many mysteries and revelations are constantly downloaded in my mind. Upon awakening out of my sleep I hear myself talking like I’m reading a book or something. The voice that I hear sounds like my voice but it seems like it’s coming from an angel who is the keeper of knowledge and wisdom. It’s like my mind is connected to the source. I don’t understand it all but it is really amazing when this happens. It’s like I’m being taught in the spirit while I’m sleeping. I desire wisdom so my sole purpose is to grow spiritually daily. I am constantly seeking the mysteries of heaven. I desire to get deeper into the Word because in the Word I hear my Father calling out to me and I follow his voice. When I seek my Father with all of my heart he opens up heaven’s gate and sens blessings my way and he grants me wisdom.  In the appointed times I am led to share mysteries within myself which sometimes reveals mysteries of heaven. I remain humble knowing that I am a daughter of Yah (God). I simply want to be obedient to my Father even if I don’t understand everything he has given me but I continue to ask questions and I patiently wait for a response. I am told constantly in the spirit to lean not on your own understanding. I am only the messenger and I bring forth what my Father gives me in the spirit so come and explore my world and enter into my mind that is connected to the source.

One day I was outside smelling the fresh air and I saw a dragonfly flying near me. Immediately I closed my eyes and I saw myself in heaven. My home was on the beach and I was on the balcony looking at the waves in the ocean.  My home was overlooking the ocean and it was all that I had imagined. Suddenly I had the feeling to prepare myself. This was the beginning of my mission and I had to get myself clean because I knew in the spirit that Yahshua was soon coming to get his Bride. I lifted up my voice and said, “The Lord is my God.” I repeated this several times as I was making a call to my love in the spirit. I then saw myself as an invisible spirit near my love’s ears and I was trying to get him to hearken to me.  Afterwards I stepped out of the waters; clean and purified. I looked around and in the spirit I was told that I must keep my robe white and spotless. My mind was connected to the spirit and I had heard what the spirit hath said. I willingly obeyed the spirit and I was being led by the spirit. I was told, “Don’t be distracted” as if this was the appointed time to hearken to my Father’s commandment. Would I be obedient? The Father tested me and immediately my phone started ringing. I ignored the call. Then my phone started to ring multiple times back to back. I still ignored the calls. I had to listen to what the Spirit had said. I was officially sent on my divine mission and I was following instructions. I was completely under the control of the Holy Spirit (My Heavenly Mother).

It has been revealed that she was my guide. She has always been my guide when I was living in darkness for she had comforted me when I was in distress during trials and tribulations in my life. The Holy Spirit purged sin out of my life and provided light during the darkest stages in my life. I kept faith as she has always had faith from the very beginning. I begin to sing praises to the Most High and worship him in my home. I danced around and I felt so much joy in my soul. I was in the process of being restored. I called upon my savior and he was about to deliver my soul out of chaos and darkness. I had repented over and over again and I so desired to be let free from the cage/prison that I was in. I wanted to be set free from the chains of bondage which was the bondage of sin. My Father has heard my prayers and have heard my cries during my days of living in darkness. While I was in darkness I didn’t know how I would get away from Satan. He held me as a prisoner and I didn’t want to sin. He tried to take my power from me but he didn’t know that I would gain my power back at the appointed time. For it was my Father’s will that I would descend down to the lower realms of consciousness which would be a path of darkness and chaos. Satan waited for me and planned to attack me as soon as I was born in this world and at the appointed time I made a choice and due to that choice I became self-willed and unleashed a serpent power that enmanated from my mind and that same serpent power trapped me because I hearkened to that power but I was ignorant. I needed to be taught and I needed to be disciplined.

As I grew up I continued to get stinged, like a sting of a scorpion, constantly being tormented due to the bad choices that I continued to make. I was in pain and I was longing to be delivered from this pain. I didn’t see the end result of all of this suffering but my Father did. He knew in advance that I would be made perfect and complete in the end but first I would have to suffer in pain waiting to be delivered. I had to learn many lessons as his child. He tested my faith and he taught me to hearken to his voice. He taught me the difference between obedience and disobedience. His plan in me would bring forth a transformation from imperfection to perfection. I used to dwell in the darkness but now I dwell in the light. I never wanted to dwell in the dark but it was destined for my life because my Father had a plan for me. There are 2 forces that exists and these 2 forces battle with each other which is good and evil.

*Which one do you chose to give power to? Be careful on the choice you make because it will manifest in your life.

But the Most High knew that I would be transformed into a spiritual light being in Time. I was transformed in his appointed time and that’s the key to it all. The mystery is the Father’s time. During a particular time in my life Yahshua came in the spirit and I saw him through someone that I had loved with all my heart. This person walked out of the door but before he walked out he looked back at me with a certain look on his face and I still reflect on it till this day. Before he had walked out I had made a decision to let him go because I felt in the spirit My Father was about to do something in my life.  I have searched deep within to understand why this person came into my life and why he was removed from my life. I loved him so much that I had to find out the meaning of his name. It was later revealed that his name means “The Lord is my God.” So many things were being revealed to me in the spirit and my focus was on getting to know Yahshua and the Father better. By seeking them both I would know the meaning of true love. During the midst of my transformation I was waiting for the person that I was dating to return to me but it was revealed that is was Yahshua that I was waiting for. I was preparing myself like a Bride. I knew it was a sign that Yahshua would soon return because he confirmed it in a dream that I had and when I saw him I was so happy because we were reuniting again and Yahshua told me that he would come and get me tomorrow. I have been waiting patiently for Yahshua to return to me ever since that dream. He gave me hope and I continue to have faith in what he told me. I love him very much and I want to share more things with you.

I was once the unfaithful wife who had committed adultery. Before I got married I had always desired true love. When I was old enough to be in a relationship I wanted love to be the foundation of my relationship even though I didn’t have a full understanding about love. I knew that love was good so I desired it naturally. I felt like my love was always pure and I was seeking the same pure love. True love is what I have seeked from the very beginning. I always wanted to love and receive the same love back. At times in my relationships I felt like I was giving 100% of me when others were giving less of them to me. I had loved so hard to the point that I couldn’t discern what true love was anymore. I was accepting things that I shouldn’t have accepted and believing lies. My love was taken for granted and I experienced so much heartache after my first boyfriend had been unfaithful to me. I couldn’t understand why but I had a forgiving heart until it continued to happen over and over again. I became furious and wrathful and later became revengeful due to unfaithfulness. I was young and foolish and I didn’t know how to deal with the pain that I was feeling. As I got older I became more gullible. I was also abused physically and emotionally which I picked up bad habits and became a violet and nonchalant person; no longer being considerate of other people’s feelings.

So much was coming upon me and I didn’t understand why. I was blind and I was asleep. It’s like I was turning into an evil beast because I was always angry and doing evil things. I had no self-control. When I became angry I sinned more. Please read my post called Battling Demons: My Testimony which goes into details of my deliverance. I experienced homosexuality and indulged in the works of the flesh and I suffered great pain in my body. I ate the fruits off of the tree of knowledge of good and evil. I have experienced both good and evil in my life and now I know the difference from good and evil. I became a broken woman and my heart was broken into so many pieces. My faith became shattered when I was in this dark state. While growing up I never experienced the love from my Father because he wasn’t in my life but I was and am blessed to have a very strong mother who is the best mother of all. My mother loved me through it all even when I was rebellious. She was the one who comforted me when I was in darkness. She was the one who uplifted me in prayer and she continued to pray for me. She has always been there for me and she came to rescue me when I needed her the most. I remember when I was a child and I always use to cling to her. I learned many things from my mother and she also disciplined me. I remember a time when I was disobedient and she kicked me out of the house. I then traveled far away from home. I started to miss being home so I begged to come back. She told me that I had to be obedient and follow her rules. I told her that I would but my heart still wasn’t right.

When I returned back home I was still disobedient. I wanted to do what I wanted to do. Ignorantly I unleashed the self-willed serpent power. I gave birth to this evil power and it began to control my life.  I became sneaky and cunning in all my ways. I learned evil and I began to live in the dark and Satan became my ruler. I set him up in my temple (body) and I was worshipping self. Satan is against the will of the Most High and Satan is self-willed and self-centered. He only wants his way. It’s like I had created a false god. By choosing to follow self I was placing myself above the Most High. As time went on deep down inside I still desired real love. I was still confused but I was trying to find my way. I decided to get married at the age of 20 and at this time I thought everything was going to be better. So when I got married things started to get out of control and things didn’t go as I had planned. We were having problems and we didn’t know how to deal with them. We went to church but we didn’t truly live the Word and understand the Word. Later I became the adulterous wife. My heart was broken by my husband and I had thoughts about someone else and I thought since he was unfaithful I would be unfaithful too. Later I tried to fix our marriage by offering to go to counseling but he rejected and we continued to be separated until we divorced. I cried many times and I poured out my heart to the Most High but it seem like my prayers were never answered. I was miserable and I continued to suffer great pain. I felt ashamed and I officially knew what it felt like to be rejected and it was a horrible feeling.

My husband rejected me so nothing else mattered after that. Everything was going wrong and I tried to fix things on my own and things got worse. I started to give up after a year and had little faith and that’s when I went further down the wrong path. I entered into the realms of darkness and I was in the center/heart of hell. My words were always, “This is how I feel.” Jeremiah 17:9 states, “The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it?” The more I indulged in sin the deeper the pit expanded in hell and that is why it is called the bottomless pit. Just to let you know hell is still expanding due to the sins of the world. But I started to become selfish and I started to do my own will.  I became self-willed. I went away from the light because I didn’t know how to endure the pain.

While being in deep thought I saw that the serpent’s power was rising up and it turned against me. It wanted to dominate my life. I went into a deeper darkness and I dwelt in the bottomless pit. I lived in chaos and it was scary and terrifying. As soon as I entered this dark place the demons followed me and they attacked me. It’s like they were waiting for me at the gates of hades. They took me and chained me up in a cage/prison for many years. I then saw a light shining after many years and I desired to be in that light. I then surrendered to God. As soon as I was sincere about making a change in my life Yahshua came into hades with the keys to set me free. Revelation 1:18 states, “I am he that liveth, and was dead; and, behold, I am alive for evermore, Amen; and have the keys of hell and of death.” John 8:36 states, “If the Son therefore shall make you free, ye shall be free indeed.” He removed the chains from me and I am no longer a slave to sin. He help me to defeat my enemy. I was beaten and bruised and I fell down but my Father and Yahshua helped me back up because they are my strength. When I was weak Yahshua was my strength and he is still my strength and that’s why I trust in him and he is guarding my heart.

It’s like he is my other half and he has been my husband this whole time. He has been here through thick and thin and now I know he will never leave me nor forsake me. I entered into a covenant with him at the age of 14 on January 1, 1999 and I asked him to come into my life and I got saved but I had no idea what it truly meant to be saved until now. At the age of 14 I had no idea of the trials and tribulations that I would go through. I was 27 years old when I surrendered to God and it was 13 years that I had experienced being in the dark. I experience so many things during that time period and he has changed my life forever. When I fully trusted him he took my hand and he led me through the valley of the shadow of death. He taught me to fear no evil and he told me to keep my eyes on him always so I did and I still am. As I walked towards the light I felt the dark energy from the demons that surrounded me, and I knew they hated me because they couldn’t fulfill their evil desires through me anymore.  I continued to walk with Yahshua to the gates and I was free indeed. I was on my way to a new beginning. I experienced a 7 day period of cleansing and purification and on the last day I was revived and he raised me up. I plunged through the fire (sun) and I survived like the Comet LoveJoy. I was and am alive. I got a new set of wings now and this is my new beginning and it has been 3 years and I am loving my spiritual walk. During this journey I had to learn how to hearken unto my Heavenly Father’s voice and learn how to reject and ignore the serpent’s voice that is the self-willed power within my mind. I now have self- control and I have learned the fruits of the spirit. I am aware and I am knowledgeable about the works of the flesh. I now can test the spirit and use discernment and I know how to use my power within for good and not for evil. I don’t want to go back into darkness ever again.  I’m no longer ignorant anymore and when I need to know something I will ask my Heavenly Father. I will seek his approval at all times and I will continue to follow his will and with that said I have gained true wisdom.

My whole life I was seeking for true love when true love was up above in my Heavenly Father. I’m so thankful that My Father sent his Son to be the perfect example of Love. Through Yahshua I found true love and I have been reunited with my Heavenly Father and the Holy Spirit (Heavenly Mother). Heaven is my original dwelling place and I am so glad that I have found my way back home. I know that obedience is required to go back home to the heavenly kingdom and I am making sure that I am being obedient. The Holy Spirit has guided me back home and she has also taught me the knowledge of good and evil. I desire wisdom and all those who hate wisdom loves death. Now I know more about my soul purpose and in the beginning of time when I came forth I desired to know wisdom and obtain knowledge. It didn’t happen the way that I thought but I have been learning that it was the Father’s will and he allowed everything to happen in his timing. I am now understanding the plan that he has for my life. I wanted so badly for my ex-husband to forgive me and accept me back when my true husband (Yahshua) forgave me and accepted me back and this has brought me so much joy in my life because I no longer feel rejected. I feel loved and he is the one who is now protecting my heart. He is hiding me under his wings and I feel safe. I wanted to be saved and he saved me. I cried out for help and he rescued me. I repented of my sins and he forgave me. I wanted life and he gave me life. He has given me hope and my faith has returned. Now I know that I must endure and remain patient and faithful through all trials and tribulations that may come my way because I know for a fact that My Father is here with me. I have the armies of heaven on my side and it’s amazing to know that I am truly loved. I was unfaithful and now I have become faithful. I know to keep my Father first and to not put trust in man. Yahshua will return to pick up his Bride at the command of my Father. Please prepare yourselves because the marriage will soon take place and the door will open soon. We will be reunited with our heavenly family and we will be presented to our Heavenly Father and we will receive our rewards. Thank the Most High that he has restored the woman. Hallelujah!

Written by Sister Carter (Athaleyah)