Shalom, Brothers and Sisters in Christ. There are moments when we cry out to God in prayer and are met with what feels like silence from heaven. Spiritual warfare feels incredibly intense in these times, and deep within my spirit I sense that a great battle is unfolding in the heavenly realms. I truly believe the children of God are under heavy attack, facing trials, pressures, and spiritual burdens unlike ever before. Yet even in the silence, we must continue to hold onto faith, trusting that God is still present, still listening, and still moving beyond what our eyes can presently see.
There have been moments when I have felt as though God had abandoned me. In prayer, I lift my voice toward heaven asking if He still hears my cries, because at times I feel completely alone and deeply in need of His guidance. I do not feel that I have much spiritual support within this world, and many people seem consumed by the pressures, distractions, and systems of daily life, leaving little room within their hearts to truly seek the Kingdom of God. Life has become heavy for so many, and I believe there are countless souls who have drifted far away from their connection with the Heavenly Father.
How many people are truly seeking God with sincerity? How many souls genuinely desire to be saved, delivered, refined, and purified during these difficult times of tribulation? So many hearts seem cold and wounded now. People speak carelessly, often without realizing how deeply their words can wound the spirits of others. Compassion, understanding, and genuine love feel increasingly rare in this world.
There are times when it feels as though darkness is spreading throughout humanity, yet at the same time, I believe God is revealing who the true children of the light are. Each soul is choosing which kingdom it will serve. Perhaps we are living through a great separation, a preparation for the Great Harvest. Perhaps God is allowing these trials to reveal who will remain steadfast in faith, who will continue seeking truth, and who will endure with love, humility, and devotion to him until the very end.
At times, when I sit alone journaling and expressing the deepest truths within my heart, I find myself wondering what I could have possibly done to deserve the suffering I have experienced. For years, I have lived quietly and withdrawn from the world, rarely leaving my home. I devote my time to my business, to reflection, and to seeking the Lord daily with all my heart. Yet despite my prayers and devotion, I have felt deep pain within my marriage, as though a great distance has formed between my husband and God. Even though he’s here, he feels far away from me, and there’s just no connection. It feels as though he has slowly given up on life itself, as if somewhere along the journey he lost sight of who he truly is.
At times, it seems he lives within a reality of his own, unreachable in ways that deeply grieve my spirit, and no matter how much love, patience, or support I try to offer, I cannot help someone who does not desire help for themselves. As I drew closer to God and sought him more deeply, it felt as though he moved further away, causing us to become spiritually divided rather than united together in alignment with God at the center of our lives. I chose to surrender myself more fully to God, while it seems he chose to hold onto himself, resisting the surrender, healing, and transformation that can only come through God’s presence.
There are moments when I feel as though every meaningful relationship I have tried to nurture has come under attack. Hurtful words, negativity, and the wishes of others who did not want to see happiness or peace have weighed heavily upon my marriage. Sometimes it feels as though Satan and all spirits of darkness seeks to divide, discourage, and destroy what was once built in love. I know many people across this world experience spiritual struggles, hardships, and battles within their relationships and families. Countless lives have been harmed and affected by dark, malevolent forces.
I believe we must guard our spirits carefully and remain rooted in faith, because when people drift far from God, they can become susceptible to attacks from Satan, harmful influences, bitterness, confusion, and a sense of spiritual emptiness. Marriage, love, peace, and unity all thrive on daily nurturing, prayer, wisdom, and intentional choices. Even though pain and hardship can challenge the soul, I believe healing, renewal, and freedom are always possible through God’s presence, truth, and enduring love.
From what I can tell, every soul is being tested, so making wise choices in life is crucial. You can’t serve both God’s kingdom and Satan’s kingdom at the same time you have to choose. You’re either a faithful servant of God or a servant of Satan. This will be a tough time for many, as families, friendships, and marriages may fall apart because of this division. In my marriage, I or God was never chosen. Me and God were never a priority in this marriage. The only thing that matters in this world is his job, it’s an attachment. My husband’s faith has been tested so many times, and he can’t even see it. He’s lost his path and is trapped in his own spiritual darkness. Only God can save him, and I pray for him as well as for everyone else battling the light and darkness within themselves.
We both started this ministry as mighty warriors of God’s kingdom, but unfortunately, he has fallen. He doesn’t even know who he is anymore in God. He doesn’t even mention God at all. I am the only one who talks about God in this marriage. I have been telling him for so many years that he was under attack, but he didn’t’ listen to me at all. Everything that I said was rejected. He turned against me as if I was the enemy. For years, I tried to help free him from his inner darkness. But he shut himself off, building a strong barrier around his heart that nothing and no one could break through, closing himself off to the light of God. I’m sharing this truth because so many people are going through it, and it’s real.
This has been happening to many people. Many souls have been drifting away from God’s kingdom and losing hope. I know I’m not alone, but I’m just bold enough to share what’s been going on in my life. I’ve always faced my battles alone, with no one to shield me, counting only on the holy ones in heaven to stand against the dark and evil forces that have tried to bring me down. People have taken their sides, and many will choose the beast system and their shadow selves over their own family, spouse, and God. Darkness is spreading in the world, and many have been misled by Satan, leaving them blind to the truth and rejecting God’s message. Yet God is our protector, and he will look after us if we follow his will.
In my testimony, Satan has torn apart every part of my life. All I did was stay faithful to God. The more I grew in spiritual knowledge and worked to purify myself, the harder the enemy tried to bring me down. The children of God have to endure to the end and that’s what I am trying to do. Nothing else even matters anymore. On Earth, the children of God are outnumbered, as there seem to be more children of darkness in the world. The children of God feel weary and worn out, tired of battling against Satan and this wicked kingdom filled with demons. Hopefully, it won’t be long before our savior descends from heaven to finally put an end to the Dragon once and for all. I am tired of dealing with cold & heartless people.
Many people become consumed by their lower, carnal nature, feeding the destructive impulses within themselves and allowing fear, pride, greed, anger, and selfish desires to overpower the spirit of love, wisdom, and compassion. When the soul becomes disconnected from higher spiritual awareness, people can begin to embody a cold and hardened nature that distances them from God, truth, and the light within. I’ve seen it firsthand, experienced it up close every day, and I’m worn out from battling the seed of the beast, the Dragon.
May God send forth His Son, Yahshua, to deliver his holy and righteous children upon the Earth and lead them into the sacred place prepared in divine peace, protection, and everlasting light. My personal life has felt like a real-life enactment of the Woman and the Dragon. It seems like the Dragon has been after me ever since I was born into this world. I’m tired of fighting this, Dragon. The war began on July 2, 2012, in my life and I’ve been battling the enemy all these years, and I hope this war ends soon. May God protect me and all his children on Earth and deliver us from this wicked kingdom. All I can hear right now is, “Be still and know I am God.” -Seraphim Sophia
