Greetings my brothers and sisters of the light! I want to share some thoughts I’ve been reflecting on. I always try to understand why certain things happen and what lessons I can take from them. I dive deep and share my experiences because others may have gone through similar situations, and maybe I can help in some way, big or small. Sometimes, people just need to know they aren’t alone in dealing with certain challenges. I’ve never been afraid to open up or be vulnerable. I’ve always wanted to live with a pure heart and good intentions, but there were times when I strayed from my true self. There were times in my life when I was lost in darkness, unsure of what I was doing, and I was influenced by evil spirits. But the Most High awakened my soul and led me into the light. I sought change, asked for forgiveness for my sins, and God transformed my life. It didn’t happen overnight; it took years for God to guide me in living righteously and I needed to be corrected. I had to face the truth and confront my inner darkness, seeing it for what it really was. I had to confront every dark thought within me and reflect on every word I’d spoken and mistake I’d made, because I wanted to understand why I made the choices I did.
My goal was to uncover the root cause of who I had become. Once I understood why I made certain choices, I could start making changes and seek the help and guidance I needed to transform my life. I knew I had to ask for forgiveness, forgive myself, and seek healing. I wanted to make a change and create something better for myself. Sometimes when I pause to reflect, I wonder why so many people don’t dive deeper into their spiritual journey and take it seriously. This question comes to mind because I take my spiritual journey seriously now that I’ve become aware and enlightened with many truths.
I’ve realized that many people are still living their lives without knowing they’re in spiritual darkness. I used to be in that same place of ignorance, so I understand what it’s like to feel like the walking dead, moving blindly through life without spiritual knowledge or guidance. I’m someone who shows real love and compassion to others because I truly understand what lost souls are going through. I wish someone had shown me the same love and compassion instead of judging my lifestyle and condemning me to hell. I wish someone had offered me spiritual knowledge and understanding. I wish there were people who forgave me instead of trying to make my life harder. I wish people had given me the chance to make things right instead of pushing me toward doing the wrong thing.
I had old friends who would go along with things instead of speaking up for what’s right. They didn’t offer good or wise advice, but rather told me what they thought I wanted to hear. If you know something is wrong, don’t just agree tell me the truth. Guide me toward something better instead of setting me up to fail. I was headed down a destructive path, and my friends just watched, almost as if they wanted to see me fall. Those are not good friends.
Words of Wisdom: If the people around you aren’t uplifting you, keeping your spirits high, or encouraging you to do the right thing, it’s best to distance yourself from them, as they could lead you down the wrong path.
Sometimes, you might have people around who are jealous of you and simply don’t like you. Maybe it’s because you’ve been successful in life or had better opportunities than they have, which makes them feel a certain way. It could also be that you were raised in a better household, given love and support from your parents, while they weren’t. Maybe they went through certain childhood traumas and took their anger out on you because you didn’t have to go through the same experiences. There are many reasons why people project their anger and pain onto others. I’ve come to realize that a lot of the ways people treated me were shaped by the struggles they faced in life.
It wasn’t my fault that I went through things others didn’t while growing up. Life was tough, but I kept it to myself and stayed optimistic and happy not projecting my hurt and pain onto others. I treated people with love and respect, and I never sought to harm or hurt anyone. I used to make bad decisions and seek revenge when people hurt me, wanting them to feel the pain I felt. But as I grew in the light of God, I realized revenge wasn’t the answer. I didn’t want to become like those who had hurt me, so I chose to change myself for the better. Over time, I realized that the people I knew carried their own childhood traumas and pain, and they genuinely needed help. But they had to be the one to seek it.
Words of Wisdom: If you keep ending up in the same situations with the same people, and it’s always full of conflict, drama, and chaos, it’s best to step away. Distance yourself from that kind of negative energy. Sometimes you might just be in the wrong place at the wrong time, and that could put you at risk or in danger.
When I surrounded myself with certain individuals who had childhood traumas that deeply impacted their lives, they often displayed traits like anger, jealousy, vengeance, selfishness, abusiveness, cold-heartedness, deception, and betrayal. This was a harmful, toxic, and unhealthy environment. A path such as this could lead you down a dark path of destruction, where unseen dangers might be lurking. Sometimes people don’t realize that the way they live and the people they allow into their lives can unintentionally attract negative or harmful energies. I learned the hard way, drawing in negative, demonic energies that became destructive and it pulled me further into darkness. I needed to be delivered from my sins and get away from all the people in my life who were bad influences.
Alot of unnecessary drama and jealousy was directed towards me, and I was completely unaware of the dangers lurking in the shadows. I knew that only God could protect me from all the dangers headed my way. Yahshua was the only way out of the situation that I had found myself in. Thank God that Yahshua came back in remembrance, and I sought him for help. I was completely surrounded by darkness and needed a way out. It was as though I was a prisoner held in the kingdom of darkness. Everyone around me was lost, unaware, and trapped in spiritual darkness. We all needed God’s help. I was the only one searching for a way out, longing to be saved. Back when I was in the kingdom of darkness, I tried to help others stuck in that same spiritual darkness, but only God had the power to save them. When He opened a door for me to get out, I didn’t think twice. That was my moment to leave Satan’s kingdom for good. Once I made that decision, I knew I’d never return because I understood exactly where that path would take me.
I made a conscious decision to leave my old life and friends behind. After spending much time with the Lord, I still longed for a relationship with them, but no matter how much I wanted it, we were on different paths and it just didn’t work. I had to move on without them. I loved them from a distance, hoping that one day they would find their way to God as I did, leaving their old life behind and repenting. So I live in this world alone with no friends. So many people live in darkness, and I know better than to entertain it. I made the angels of heaven my friends. In prayer, I talk with the Heavenly Father and Yahshua, asking for the Holy Spirit to be sent to guide me and lead me into truth. Am I lonely at times? Yes! Do I wish to have a friend who aligns with God? Yes! But I don’t have one nor do I seek to go into the world to find one.
After facing so much darkness and enduring attacks from dark and demonic forces in this world, I just want to live peacefully, surrounded by the angels of the Lord. The angels of the Lord do not wish to harm me or lead me into danger, and I am at peace with them. I believe God wants us to have fellowship with other believers, but where can you find them? Some might say the church, but many people there are living in spiritual darkness as well. Many of them are quick to judge while living in sin themselves. The people I was surrounded by claimed to be believers in Christ, yet their lives were filled with drama and sin. Their actions didn’t align with the Word of God; in fact, they often did the complete opposite, making them all hypocrites.
Who can you really trust in this world? Certainly not those who claim to be Christians. You truly have to test every spirit so that you are not deceived. It doesn’t matter if they are believers or not. Test every spirit. While not everyone is alike, I’d rather be cautious than end up finding myself in a situation that I would regret. I love people, but I don’t want to be around those who are constantly living in sin and are aware of it. It just doesn’t make sense to me. Too many Christians have been misled and fed false teachings. The whole world has been misled and deceived. Humanity needs to search for the truth and go directly to the Creator to ask for all truths to be revealed.
These days, offering help or spiritual guidance feels pointless because people seem unwilling to listen or follow the Holy Spirit. Many people run from the truth and avoid facing the darkness that exists within themselves and in the world. It’s an ongoing struggle between the light and darkness, and it shouldn’t have to be this way. The world we live in today feels chaotic, and honesty is hard to find truth in many people, so I’ve chosen to dedicate myself to the Lord. If I have to walk with God alone, so be it. At the end of the day, I know the Lord is by my side. -Seraphim Sophia